Somewhere inside is a happy place that is safe from all the
struggles and pain. Whenever I feel the weight of the world is pressing me
down, I visit my happy place. It seems so long since I have been there I
thought I wouldn't be able to find my way back.
I tried to find my way back to my happy place today. I found
the sorrow and grief that seem to always be waiting on the surface. They are
always there and they beg me to stay awhile; linger and feel the ache and
emptiness that accompany them. They wrap warm arms around me like comforting
friends. "Don't be afraid," they tell me. "Allow us to wash
the pain away." Soon they are guiding me on my way. "You must go
deeper to find your happy place," they say.
When I look back at them, they are fading, and I can see
that sorrow and grief were merely memories untouched: the strong arms of my
father, the scent of his work clothes, his warm quiet laugh, his gentle loving
eyes.
I continue on the path to find my happy place and find it
faintly lit by other memories long untouched: Ben standing proudly in cap and
gown alongside friends who tread the same halls of his Alma mater; Joel
standing at attention waiting to be tapped by encouraging family rushing
through the excited crowd; all there for the same purpose.
The echo of voices tells me, "Deeper, deeper. You must
go deeper to find your happy place." As I search the depths, so many
memories light the way: friends smiling and touching; children hugging and
kissing; music made through the years drifting through the air; family weeping
and laughing; birthdays, weddings, holidays are all memories lighting the dark
path to my happy place.
Just as I despair that my happy place is but a memory long
past and lost forever, beaten down by worry, overcome by fear and emptiness; I
feel a tug growing stronger, propelling me forward. Is this my happy place
coming to greet me?
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